Have you ever done a thing and regreted it the next minute?
Time and again I feel like a fool, I do things, and hate myself for doing it.
It was the times when I was 20,how can I make friend with someone like him...and now,the seriously wounded heart inside of me,just the resulkt of all the stupid things that I have done at that times..
He,the good pupil at the high school,he passed the university exam with the high result,but that's all that I've heard abot him.And the outside shape..too perfect,the intelligent face with the shinning glass on his eyes..
How terrible,the times that I makes freind with him was the time I lived in Hell,we played Half Life together through the night,before the monitor was couples of eyes,they are tired and dark..when the sun begin to shine,we left the shop and go to...bed,just sleep and sleep....at the noon,when everyone come to the rice shop(com binh dan) ,we are still lying on the bed with all the damn dream...
And when the sun begin to dive down the sky_line,we begin to continue the circle...the thing that should not be,but I feel that I will never end,the stupid circle that I can't escape.
After that,tired with all the useless playing,we determine to leave together..I just repair my mistake at the times before,I stop spend money,just concentrace in earing money,and I come to the high school at the work of the bike_keeper(at that times,I was student already),I may escape from all the dark memory at the past,but it didn't keep for a long times..the shadow wannna up rising once more.
I earned over 2 milions,the big money for the poor student like me, and with my thinking..I see that,if I spend those money once more,I will continue put my self to the deep canyon..I must use those money for somethings more important.
Ah,I forget that..my throat has the problem,and I will use those money to cure for that disease...damn it,I must say that treater was every where,they are transform to everyone,the cool teacher,the revend..and in my circumsatnce..there was the doctor in the white glass,the man that I should respect..but I will never do that.
He recomend I cut all my amidals,and the money that I find in 6 month is not enough for this...I must borrow more from my friend.
And..what's the feeling when I come to the "phau thuat" room??Just the paint feeling,because the stun mecidine lack of dose..and the doctor begin to cut my amidals,I have no friends,my parents was far away from me..no one can protect me..after they do everything,they throwed me to another room like the pig..and they don't care about me,the blood can't stop run down from my mouth,they gived me the pot under my bed...
Leave the hospital,it's useless,my throat even more paint,and the disease don't dedute..I must forget everything,but I didn't..with the anger of life,I return to my friend,and we continue the disgrace game..
Last month,he borrowed me 300.000,and although I feel something (the emotion not clearly) but I still acept,how stupid I am..and now,my friend ship,da*n it...my money [-x
I will continue my story next times,it's so long.Will you listen to me???
yeh i'm listennig to you , i' ve just finished reading your story and now i think i feel like enjoying in your circle :))
just jok , the past was too terrible to laugh at . i played all day time ,didn't care anyone . i fooled around , i was always tired & bored didn't know to do next ..
now i'm already a student of a large UN but things seem not to be better ..
How terrible,the times that I makes freind with him was the time I lived in Hell,we played Half Life together through the night,before the monitor was couples of eyes,they are tired and dark
…Yawn…Half Life-Counter Strike is so attractive. I’d never control times whenever playing that game; was always stucked by kill ‘n be killed absorbed interest…shot gun (2-2) or AK (3-1) plus (1-5) is my favourite “toys” (^_^)…oh I forgot: my “baby” (1-1) also (^_^)…and you could guess that raid school which I belong (^o^)...but surely, it was incredible wasting time that we both knew…Last time I played it with my friends that I could remember is summer 2001 :)).
there was the doctor in the white glass,the man that I should respect..but I will never do that.
…Quite frankly this your words is that I agree…I had worst impressions on some of them…and one this for sure difficulty so that counting on me take what they say on trust...winkle money out of us whenever and whatever reasons those cunts could…And you do not expect them treat us well in hospital if without “envelope”…
…Cigar !…you should forget your money …you’re not stupid as the way you’ve thought…the reason is that you did right…maybe 300 000 VND is so big for poor guys like you or me…but it proved that yourself had confidence on your friend and you did anything you could for guy who called “friend” by yourself…the guilty consciences will exist in himself if he have still selfrepecting http://www.angelfire.com/pro/lemoney/smiles/icon_bandit.gif…
I forget money when my poctket is full,but what the pity..it always in the empty status,and I miss,miss my money so much.(not honey..money)
Money,sometimes I walked alone,and I wonder what the purpose of money in my pocket..i let them alone or spned them all,but many event happend..and it makes me change my habit...spend money or let it in the enemy's pocket??
An I have the right answer.
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